Anxious

I didn't know this hope would rise in me! It's aggravating to feel it growing, and (as horrible as it seems) to crush it. I've submitted a manuscript (Scars) to a minor publishing company (Tate Publishing) and I'll get a reply in 5-7 weeks. I don't expect a yes, I submitted it mainly because I wanted to do something and it's just helpful to know how the process goes. But despite the fact I don't believe it'll be accepted, I still have that lingering what if in the back of my mind, and, to be honest, it's scary. Very scary. That's why I keep trying to kill it. *Sigh*.

For maybe a month now I've been listening to this podcast, Writing Excuses. (I highly suggest this to writers; it's basically three published author's giving advice to new writers; it's fifteen minutes, funny, and free.) The one I listened to last night was about 'Perseverance', and they went over the hardships of writing being your main career. How hard it is to get published, how right when you're career is at it's peek the rug could be tugged from underneath you. So I was scared, because I know that could easily happen to me if I become a professional author, but encouraged because I heard how these famous people started out with rejection after rejection. So while I'm scared for that rejection, I'm relatively confident I can take it. Just keep writing. Because that's what I love to do, so no ones gunna stop me.

Updated

Okay, so if you read my last post you know I'm really hyped about this story I wrote for my sister, called Astronym. Well, I'm writing the sequel now, (Insomnia) and it's CRAZY cool and super fun to write :) Right now I have to study the ancient Greek culture to better create this secret civilization. I can't wait to write the scene there!!! But I guess I'll have to wait until I understand it more and everything. :/

It's so exciting, writing and loving it and putting it out there with fear in your heart. I'm so invigorated every time I hear Haunted by Taylor Swift, a song VERY connected to Astronym, and when I hear Stronger (glee cast version, which my sister made a dance to btw) which is deeply connected to the sequel to my first major novelette, Scars. I guess that just goes to show how much I love music and writing.... but now we're getting off topic. (Have you noticed I do that a lot?)